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A good few months after moving to Cardiff back in 2015, I started dating a girl. We laughed about our differences and became closer due to our similarities. I didn’t want to stop seeing her. We carried on meeting up a few times each week over the summer and it became a fully fledged relationship. I managed to keep my anxieties at bay but I knew the time would come where she’d figure out about my sleepless nights, sporadic mood swings and inevitable panic attacks. When I eventually opened up to her about all this, she couldn’t have been more supportive. I consider myself lucky enough to say that to this day, she remains just as supportive and will stay up with me when I can’t sleep and does everything she can to help bring me back to reality when I’m struggling. We live together now in Swansea and this song is unequivocally for her.



Hellbent on getting to the top but hardly holding on
These ropes are more like strings
I’ve been going back on words, the promises are worse
Like I never meant a thing
Trying not to give in to the shove
As the push takes of the gloves and beats me to the floor
This train’s coming off its rails
The ship is set to sail and waiting by the shore

I’d rather be cold in bed with her than warm by myself
I could do this alone but I’d prefer it if I had her help
She has her faith and I have this way of putting it down
But the truth is I’m scared when I need her there she won’t be around
I need her now

Quiet with the patience of a saint
As she does her best to wait for miracles to intervene
I score delicate at best
As I try hard to contest against the way that I have been
Why is my head not on my side?
There’s a ghost in place of pride and it just went through the wall
Just like me it needs a fix
Please replace my nerves with bricks so I won’t feel a thing at all
I’d rather be half of something good than on my own, whole and
I’ll risk losing my mind on something true than stay sane for what’s fake She’s got her ideals and I’ve got this real fear that I don’t match up
I don’t know what for cuz she says she’s sure that I’m more than enough
I just wish I could trust

I’d rather ignore the odds than know that I’ve made a safe bet
I’ll forgive the loss if she has to go but I won’t forget
That she has this knack of keeping me intact when I start to come loose Though I’m not convinced that heaven exists, she’s almost the proof
If only she knew


from Things I Wish I'd Said - Album, released May 19, 2017


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